Not apologizing for any of what I’m about to say.

I used to hear people go on and on about how much they loved the movie LoveActually. It made me vomit. I watched it with my ex-husband and while he seemed to really like it- so much that he bought a copy on DVD- I thought it was just garbage. The only part I would laugh at was Colin Firth speaking- even English!

The other night I wanted to watch a sappy Christmas movie and I went ahead and tried LoveActually, again. I wanted to see what nearly a year of being single had done to me as a viewer of romantic comedies. I’m here to say that it did a lot.

The first time I watched the movie, I couldn’t see the love stories because all I saw was a married man falling for his young, manipulative secretary. I tell you. That’s ALL I saw and my life hadn’t been blown apart by somewhat similar circumstances.

Watching it again as a single woman, I could enjoy the screenplay and it reminded me of how much I love Richard Curtis as a screenwriter. The way he writes reminds me of David Mamet and Joss Whedon (not all Whedon, grant you) and their speed and the way they make a character bumble around. There’s something about how these three write that will always capture my attention. Yes, even Notting Hill. I had to watch it. And, yes, I am a fan of Hugh Grant. Sue me.

But back to the movie I used to hate with a passion.

First off, the movie I hated also contained one of my favorite actresses, Emma Thompson. She’s another one I’ll watch in anything. I’d even watch a documentary about something non-costumey if she narrated it. Her presence on screen kills me every time. So, couple that with the following words and you get perfection within imperfection.

Karen: Tell me, if you were in my position, what would you do?

Harry: What position is that?

Karen: Imagine your husband bought a gold necklace, and come Christmas gave it to somebody else…

Harry: Oh, Karen…

Karen: Would you wait around to find out…

Parent: Good night!

Karen: Night, night. Happy Christmas!

[back to Harry]

Karen: Would you wait around to find out if it’s just a necklace, or if it’s sex and a necklace, or if, worst of all, it’s a necklace and love? Would you stay, knowing life would always be a little bit worse? Or would you cut and run?

Harry: Oh, God. I am so in the wrong. The classic fool!

Karen: [voice breaking] Yes, but you’ve also made a fool out of me, and you’ve made the life I lead foolish, too!

Yeah, Thompson makes that scene happen. She’s so raw and so composed all in one. It’s quite amazing from an acting standpoint. But, again, the cheating husband angle I can’t get over.

But moving forward, onward, into rom-com enjoyment land…or maybe it’s just because it’s this time of year when everyone seems to try harder to be at their best.

and maybe that’s all it is… but I’m not a fan of Keira. Nails on a chalkboard! This story is a little cringe worthy for me. I know that staying faithful doesn’t sell movie tickets so I get why they’d open the can of worms with this guy’s honesty. The fact that he says, Enough! as he’s walking away almost makes me like him more until Keira comes out again for that kiss. Boundaries, people.

The love story that could’ve happened but can’t because of her baggage. Don’t we know that story. It’s still sweet that Karl still wants to say goodnight to her at work with all that emotional tension.

Connection despite language barriers. This was the most far fetched of all of them- that he would leave his family and fly all the way back to marry this girl. But, still, hello Hollywood. And how romantic! Maybe sometimes we feel this foolhardy but who actually does this? Despite that, this moment is by far one of my favorites.

Speaking of favorites. The Liam Neeson character finding out his step-son has fallen in love and it’s not the death of his mom that has him so consumed is a delight. The dad goes to huge lengths to show his son the importance of love.

As this is not a movie review, I’m just going to cut it short and admit to how hard I cried over this movie. I did need a good cry and this was there so my logical mind tells me I used it as a means to an end. But, basically, I cried and it was awesome!

I guess it was just nice to enjoy this movie all by myself. I do feel the urge to watch Four Weddings and a Funeral- an all time favorite.

Happy Holidays! And even if you don’t celebrate anything this time of year- enjoy your family and friends!